So, I talked myself out of actually going away somewhere next week. I overthink things too much. While I can afford to go where I was planning to go, it just seemed...frivolous to me. I guess that's what happens when you don't go on a single vacation from the time you were 5 until the time you were 33. I can't bring myself to waste the money.
But I am contemplating treating myself to a spa day here at home. Only problem is, I can't convince myself to spend the money for that either. My little voice (and I can't decide if it sounds more like my dad or my mom or Suze Orman) says that it isn't worth spending the money on.
But I haven't had a whole week off in two years (since I started at this company, which was almost exactly 2 years ago). I want to pamper myself a little bit.
I'm also more than a little intimidated by the whole spa experience. Do I really have to change into a robe for a manicure, pedicure, and facial? I'm not skinny or pretty like all of the women on the websites (I know, I know - they are just models in stock photos for the most part). I'm self-conscious, and working class (despite my college degree and nice, new salary increase), and what if I don't fit in?
So, if you read this, convince me to spend a little money on something completely frivolous. And convince me that the ladies at the spa won't look at me with contempt.
(I know, I know. The therapy thing helped a lot, but I have a lot of issues from a whole lot of years. I'm working on it).